Controlling My Offspring

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed; actually, twice - 1:30am because I got slammed into by hubby just after he dropped T who wouldn't go back to her room to sleep - he got her wound up - with little regard for the sleeping pregnant woman on the same bed. Then at almost 8:00 I was woken by screams of "he pinched me, wahhhhhh!" It's hard not to be crabby in this situation. I really wish I could just go sleep somewhere else - like my own place. Really, after 5 and a half years of marriage, plus another 4 years living together before marriage, doesn't it seems fair that we get our own place...an apartment or something. I just don't need to live with anymore people than I have to - and nothing against hubby's mom - I shouldn't have to live with her and her dogs. My son who is allergic to dogs shouldn't HAVE to live here either. And then there is the whole "I don't have my own kitchen" thing that drives me nuts. I don't feel like I can really get into being a stay-at-home mom in someone else kitchen, with someone else's kitchen stuff, and someone else's food. I can't just go in there and start a major cooking project because the dogs and mother-in-law are always coming in there. It's not a clean/sanitary kitchen like I would keep, and I just can't handle it. I'm probably a germaphobe and freak, but I don't care. I am an adult woman with children to feed, and I deserve better! I actually cleaned the twins old baby bottles in our bathroom sink when they were babies - because, after all, it was cleaner than the kitchen! Glad to vent - again, I have no problem with how other people run their homes, I just think I need and deserve my own. I never thought I'd be 28, married to a 31 year old, mother to school-age kids, pregnant, and still living with a roommate.

So, I need to make today happy. I don't know how...I really don't. But I'll have to try. Music makes me happy. Clean places make me happy. Nature, breezes, sun, fresh air - all that makes me happy. Taking pictures and editing them makes me happy.
Looks like we'll be leaving the house to get into something today! Perhaps visiting my parents briefly...maybe going by storage and taking tubs (to feel accomplished). Maybe we could return a library book or 2 and stop by a playground.

The kids are cleaning up their rooms; they also need to clean the living room - crayons are everywhere! They've had breakfast...I haven't. I DID fold the laundry today; I have also scanned in the first 13 pages of the Grade 1 Reading workbook I got yesterday. Next up - waking the husband so he can get to work by 11; normally he is off on Sunday, but he is using today to go clean the exhaust hood at work while the ovens are off. He WILL be off tomorrow; we plan to go to storage and discuss the re-arranging that needs to be done around here (getting our computer and desk out of our bedroom and making room for baby).

And my neck - it still hurts. I'm still off the Benadryl, though I have needed it for itchiness and sleep. I've been getting plenty of showers - which is a first since the twins were born. My face is breaking out less, and my hair is looking decent. I'm still not over my record weight in this pregnancy (166.5), but I'm trying to pack in calories to maintain that weight. My feet are swelling a little now.