Controlling My Offspring

Tuesday is here - sorry no Monday update, but the Internet was cutoff - paid the bill - got it back. Day after tomorrow I am due to give birth. There is still a chance I'll go before then - but I doubt it.
I’m hoping this birth is as low key as possible - few visitors. My mom and Hubby will stay in room for the birth - if that’s okay with my doctor. My dad will be at his house with my twins. My brother will either be with my dad and twins or at the hospital in the waiting room. Hubby’s dad should be at bike week someplace. Hubby’s mom can’t take off work, but she’ll visit briefly after work. My grandmother will show up if she is already in town. This is ALL GOOD! Last time everyone showed up for the circus and it cut into hubby's bonding time majorly. Mine too.

What I did yesterday:
Empty pencil sharpener
Take pics of Myra’s blanket
Fill out sticker for Dr
Fold towels
Write check to storage (to mail Thursday)
Move wipes to bedroom
Call mom for babysitting
Wash baby clothes
Charge phone!
Check the mail
Check balance at ATM
Get cokes
Call doctor to reschedule - 933-8334
Pay charter
Wake up hubby
Have kids clean room & make beds
Get hubby a beach towel for the shower
Wash towels - bleach/vinegar/baking soda/SOAK
Dry hubby’s clothes
Fold hubby’s clothes
Fill wipes spray
Dry towels
Clean some small tubs that had kids books
Eat
Kids breakfast
Kids lunch
Kids dinner
Fill brown bookshelf with drum machine
Fill brown bookshelf with toy computers
Adjust shelf heights on white bookshelf
Dust/clean shelves on white bookshelf
Add books to white bookshelf - emptying small tubs of kids books

On today's list:
Kids breakfast
Kids lunch
Take kids to my parents (1:45-2pm)
Get gas
Go to Dr. (3pm)
Get cokes
Check mail
Eat
Have kids clean room & make beds
Shower
Kids dinner
Wake up hubby
Open blinds
Charge phone!
Wash Myra's blanket and other baby stuff

Thoughts from yesterday:
This is day 8 of rain here.
Hubby says he's freaking out because he's worried about me and losing me during childbirth.
Twins built children of the world puzzle together before 8am.
No Internet means no barbie.com OR wizard101 woes today!
Twins built US States puzzle together too.
Twins are playing Over the Hedge on xbox together.
Stupid books broke my arms out - had to take a Benadryl.
Campbell? cute name?
Hubby's mom won't use skim milk in mac & cheese - but wants to lose weight.
She also says her foot is “cured” because it doesn’t hurt.
The rat in the laundry room is eating those peanut treats.
She just washed all the little rugs in the house yesterday - and 2 have already been peed on again.

Tomorrow - my last day before baby:
Dry baby clothes
Fold baby clothes
Put baby clothes in small tubs
Put baby blankets in space bag
Dry Myra's blanket and other baby stuff
Fold Myra's blanket and other baby stuff
Put away Myra's blanket and other baby stuff
Fill brown bookshelf with games and puzzles
Take after pic of brown bookshelf
Take after pic of white bookshelf
Take after pic of movie rack
Label drawers
Take down August sign
Rip paper towels for wipes
Fold paper towels for wipes
Sew cloth wipes

Yesterday:
I took my old phone and charger to my mom.
I took my new phone's UPC to my mom for rebates.
I got my brother to take some pictures of my belly.
My kids ate TONS of food at my parent's house - yogurt, ice cream, Popsicles, cereal, ramen noodles, grapes, cucumbers, AND snacks of crackers and cookies.
I watched the football game with my family.
Alabama won 53 to 7 - no surprise!
I watched part of the Auburn game after the 1 hour rain delay - Auburn won 41-30, but it wasn't easy for them!
Hubby placed 7th in his tournament and won a disc.
I cut hair out of the vacuum brush, but I didn't test it afterward.
I measured my tummy - 46".
I checked the mail.

Sunday:
Hang shirts in closet
Vacuum where star station TV was
Empty brown shelf
Fill up the movie rack
Move brown bookshelf to old star station TV spot

I'm a bit irritated today - honestly hubby's mom is rubbing my the wrong way. I think I'm just sick of all the pampering my kids get from their dad, my dad, and hubby's mom. These kids get WAY too much from these other people. It's like they get rewarded for doing nothing OR doing something undesirable. On top of that, I'm frustrated with how bad I know hubby's mood will be today.
Update - hubby woke up a little after 11. It is 1pm and he's asleep again. He got in a bad mood when he realized his mom was still doing her laundry, so he can't do his. He does seem to be getting sick - cough, headache, sore throat. And he is sore from yesterday's tournament.
At 3:30 he got back up...didn't really leave the bed till after 4. He's still pissed about the clothes thing. He wants to leave, but says he has nothing to wear. At 4:40 he finally got off his butt and took the trash out...and now he's smoking a cigarette while talking to the shirtless perv from across the street.
Now at 5:20 I'm approaching mood level "vile" - I am highly disgusted. Hubby is BACK in bed. Hubby's mom is touching the trash can and trash bag in the kitchen and emptying the dishwasher - she doesn't even bother washing her hands. That really makes me HATE the food I have to consume later! I know that she has to wonder why I wash and rinse my utensils and plates before I use them - well, it's because I don't want to die - I don't like foodbourne illness - I'm pregnant too. Call me a germaphobe, but I'll be the germaphobe without Ecoli!
Oh - the bank isn't letting hubby use his card...so no bills are getting paid. He is too down to call the bank (1-800 numbers usually work on the weekends). So cable could be cutoff anytime. Also his mom is demanding money - and he promised her at least $150. I guess that means we won't be paying storage or the credit cards after all. I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up about the check - I should have known it was too good to be true.

Tomorrow:
Sew cloth wipes
Put away folded towels/blankets/comforter
Rip paper towels for wipes
Fold paper towels for wipes
Clear off bedroom dresser
Pack blue fabric, 2 pairs breast pads, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger
Scan some pages in the Apple Tree workbook
Try out wipes solution in spray bottle & dilute if needed
Fill & organize craft tub
Fix shelves of white bookshelf to fit books
Empty book tub onto white or brown bookshelf
Use empty tub for clothes in my bottom drawer
Vacuum as much as possible - BR, LR, Kids room, hallway
Move star station TV to dining room
Paint my tummy
Take tummy pictures!
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Clean the crib
Wipe down crib mattress
Put crib mattress in crib (after dry)
Enter coke rewards points
Label twins dresser drawers
Put hammer away in toolbox

Today may be a big day for us financially. Hubby's boss gave him his pay(half of it really) for next month last night. Now we have enough to pay to get our car insurance back; we can pay cable too. I feel certain there will be enough left to pay storage and even my health insurance and credit cards IF we stretch it right. Hubby is also meeting with his father today to get a new pair of shoes. He said he wants to get up "early" - perhaps 9. Generally he will go back to sleep until 10:30 in a case like this. All I need him to be home for is 30 minutes so I can get a shower. He doesn't have to work until 4...so he'll leave here at 3:15.
Headache. Snotty. Guts hurt. Boobs hurt. Hubby has gone to do errands - I'm glad because he was being "short" with me at a time that I didn't need it. You know why I hate making phone calls? Because that's when EVERYTHING goes down around me. I called the twin's doctor to see if they will take the baby - as I expected - NO. Then I called my OBGYN to setup next weeks pre-induction appointment - Tuesday at 3pm - horrible timing - no one wants to keep the twins at 3pm - it cuts into people's lives - and I'd be leaving in traffic. They told me to call back Monday to try to reschedule earlier in the day. Then I looked up the pediatrician's office that has always been the backup I had in mind IF I needed to change the kids doctor. I called them - they were great - they will take my new baby; they will also take my twins. An extra bonus is that the twins FIRST pediatrician - who we adored - is at this practice now, so we may get to see her again! Another doctor there is the husband of a doctor that has worked on J & T at Children's Hospital before. Anyway, talking on the phone to people that matter while hubby is being a jerk and the twins are running around asking for stuff they don't need is NOT easy. Then I get sat down in my room and have to jump up and RUN to get the ringing phone - it was hubby's mom telling the twins about the surprises she got them - so then before the call is over I've got 2 kids bombarding me with questions about "when do I get my surprise" - the TV is blaring - I hate noise!
Hubby brought home McDonald's for lunch, then took the kids outside to get muddy - and I got a much needed shower. Hubby is gone to work now. And I am sitting here with these sharp pains - baby movement - low down in front - enough pain to make a moan/grunt over. Maybe I just need to poop? The fluid is driving me nuts. I know it isn't pee because little to no pee comes out when I go to the toilet.
Hubby's boss needs him to work the night after I am due to have the baby. I guess my kids will have to go stay with m parents that night until he gets off work...I hope they are willing to help out like that.
Tomorrow is Saturday! Hubby has a tournament. I am taking the kids to visit my parents and brother. I plan on arriving at kickoff for Alabama football...about 11:30am. It will be nice to get out of here and take my mind off home. I miss my family and they miss us, so it's all good.

Today:
J's antihistamine
J's inhaler
Have kids clean their rooms & make their beds
Kids Breakfast
Mail booster seat registration cards
Rinse kids and my clothes
Dry kids and my clothes
Empty dishwasher
Refill dishwasher
Fold kids and my clothes
Call the pediatrician about new patient 681-8002
Call doctor for appointment next Wednesday - 933-8334 - 3pm on Tuesday 22nd.
Call new pediatrician - see if they will take newborn on medicaid - 681-5377
Wake up hubby
Check Mail
Kids Lunch
Kids Dinner
Shower
Put swaddleme in spacebag
Dry hubby's disc golf bag


Tomorrow or Sunday:
Sew cloth wipes
Put away folded towels/blankets/comforter
Rip paper towels for wipes
Fold paper towels for wipes
Clear off bedroom dresser
Pack blue fabric, 2 pairs breast pads, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger
Scan some pages in the Apple Tree workbook
Try out wipes solution in spray bottle & dilute if needed
Fill & organize craft tub
Fix shelves of white bookshelf to fit books
Empty book tub onto white or brown bookshelf
Use empty tub for clothes in my bottom drawer
Cut hair out of vacuum brush
Vacuum as much as possible - BR, LR, Kids room, hallway
Vacuum where star station TV was
Empty brown shelf
Move brown bookshelf to old star station TV spot
Fill up the movie rack
Clean the crib
Wipe down crib mattress
Put crib mattress in crib (after dry)
Move star station TV to dining room
Paint my tummy
Take tummy pictures!
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Label twins dresser drawers
Put hammer away in toolbox
Hang shirts in closet
Enter coke rewards points

Yesterday we spent a little time celebrating with hubby's mom for her birthday. Nothing major - just the kids being sweet to her and hanging out. We gave her a pretty gift bag (picked by T) with practical gifts and sentimental gifts (card picked by J that we listed reasons hubby's mom is special and a bracelet we made together). The twins sang happy birthday to her and gave her WAY more hugs than usual. She was thrilled.
Doctor update...I lost 1 pound...I am dilated 3-4cm...cervix still pretty thick...head down but not dropped too far - still floating a bit. After 3 types of tests I was told I am NOT leaking amniotic fluid. The third test to check my fluid issue was an ultrasound; they also wanted to check his size - he seemed big to the doctor. The ultrasound could be off by a pound either way...8 pounds 5 ounces. The doctor used that with the reminder of "he'll gain a half a pound a week" to push me into setting a date. She says he's still vaginally birthable, but if he gets much bigger...well, we'll see. I told her if I haven't gone into labor naturally by my due date, I'll get induced then. So, in 1 week or less I'll have a baby. AND he does NOT need any more newborn diapers. I think we're going into size 1's quick!
I really need to focus on particular areas of my to-do list. Common sense tells me to do things first that pertain to the baby; also, I try not to focus on things other people could do for me if they had to. I feel like I need to write an outline of what needs to be done...like I'm in school or something. Big headings could be - laundry, living room, bedroom, baby preparation, day-to-day basics. Seems so "doable" to have 5 things on a list; unfortunately, there are MANY subheadings, and I get LOST in the details!

Today - To-Do:
Kids breakfast
Empty small camera
Put diapers on BR dresser - kids helped move them
Charge cell phone
Kids Lunch
Kids Dinner
Roll dimes
Roll pennies
Put cash box up
Pickup J's prescription
Put away kids too big clothes
Put away kids clothes in my room
Dry towels
Dust star station TV
Rinse & Test spray bottle - it works
Check Mail
Fold blankets/towels/comforter
Finish the glass project
Fold towels from dryer
Wash kids and my clothes
Wake up hubby

Tomorrow - To-Do:
Call the pediatrician about new patient
Call doctor for appointment next Wednesday
Wake up hubby
Paint my tummy
Take tummy pictures!
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Mail booster seat registration cards
Fill up the movie rack
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
J's antihistamine
J's inhaler
Kids Breakfast
Kids Lunch
Kids Dinner
Check Mail
Cut hair out of vacuum brush
Vacuum as much as possible - BR, LR, Kids room, hallway
Vacuum where star station TV was
Empty brown shelf
Move brown bookshelf to old star station TV spot
Clean the crib
Wipe down crib mattress
Put crib mattress in crib (after dry) Enter coke rewards points
Put swaddleme in spacebag
Move star station TV to dining room
Rip paper towels for wipes
Fold paper towels for wipes
Sew cloth wipes
Try out wipes solution in spray bottle & dilute if needed
Fill & organize craft tub
Fix shelves of white bookshelf to fit books
Empty book tub onto white or brown bookshelf
Use empty tub for clothes in my bottom drawer
Fold towels from dryer
Wash kids and my clothes
Dry kids and my clothes
Fold kids and my clothes
Label twins dresser drawers
Put hammer away in toolbox
Put away folded towels/blankets/comforter
Clear off bedroom dresser
Pack blue fabric, 2 pairs breast pads, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger
Scan some pages in the Apple Tree workbook

I'll be going to the doctor shortly - just for a check-up. I'm curious to see if the baby has dropped like I think he has. Also, I suspect my cervix is thinning out - maybe even dilating a little more. I think I've gained weight - probably just water weight. It would not surprise me to have a non-stress test done due to the amazing number of contractions I've had. I have some money from hubby to get gas and pay for parking. Hubby will be keeping the kids for me.
I need to stop at the dollar store on the way home and get some things - hand soap, spray bottle, masking tape, etc. I've already gone out in the rain to buy cokes.
I'm hoping to visit my mom Saturday - I thought hubby could come with us since he is off work, but he is playing in a tournament. Of course, I COULD have a baby before Saturday - that would throw a wrench in the works!
The dentist update - neither twin has any cavities. J has a little calculus from his addiction to milk. The new rule is milk and juice ONLY at mealtime - water anytime. That rule is "new" to me because I grew up drinking what I wanted, any time I wanted. Me and hubby have always drank coke (or tea or other soda) all day and night - thus we have really BAD teeth. Seriously, I don't recall drinking water until my 20's (except at water fountains). Anyway, the kids don't mind - they like water. It also helps me limit J's intake of milk - before he would drink many, many glasses of milk every day...now he only gets 3 - max.
Today hubby's mom turns 59! This is her first sober (and non-smoking) birthday in tons and tons of years. We don't have anything special planned - I'm thinking art project to make a nice card or banner later. She doesn't like cake or sweets, and she is trying to watch her weight - so no food.

Today I need to:
J's antihistamine
Kids breakfast
Wake up hubby to take care of kids
Doctor's appointment at 11:15
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, masking tape, outlet box cover?, organization?
Pack a hospital bag - hubby's baby blanket, 2 - 2 pc outfits, 1 legged onesie, 2 pairs socks, blue gown, preemie onesie, 1 other hat, my jeans, toiletries, my t-shirt, 2-3 pair socks, nightgown, pj bottoms, pj tops, black fold-out bag,
Dewrinkle baby load 2
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Make Hubby's mom a gift/card
Dry towels
Kids Dinner
Check Mail

Tomorrow:
Call the pediatrician about new patient
Fill up the movie rack
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Label twins dresser drawers
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Paint my tummy
Take tummy pictures!
Cut hair out of vacuum brush
Vacuum as much as possible - BR, LR, Kids room, hallway
Mail booster seat registration cards
Finish the glass project
Put hammer away in toolbox
Fold blankets/towels/sheets/comforter
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Clear off bedroom dresser
Call to see if J's prescription is ready
J's antihistamine
Kids breakfast
Wake up hubby
Pack blue fabric, 2 pairs breast pads, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger
Kids Lunch
Kids Dinner
Scan some pages in the Apple Tree workbook
Clean the crib
Wipe down crib mattress
Put crib mattress in crib (after dry)

I slept much better last night. I woke up about half as often as the night before, and I wasn't in pain all night. My contractions were 10 minutes apart at bedtime, but now they are random. Hubby works 11-8 today. So far the twins are behaving. I'm energetic enough to want to tie up some loose ends around the house.
Hubby just left for work. He gave me money without being asked. Now I don't have to worry about gas or parking at my doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'm due in 9 days...single digits...uh. Tomorrow will be appointment number 14 for this pregnancy.
T got into a puzzle mood today and dug through a box of misc pieces to build a horse puzzle. After that she learned how to spell "vine" - thanks PBS Kids!
J is a little "attitudey" today - and a little weepy. He's busy playing Scooby Doo on Xbox.
Tonight I get to see my Duggar show AND an all new Biggest Loser!
I'm playing a fun game of "stay busy and ignore the contractions." After getting lunch ready for the twins, I plan on laying out their day clothes, getting myself dressed, washing my face, brushing my teeth, brushing my hair, checking the mail, creating a rockin' playlist for later, gathering my purse (epipen, medicaid cards, etc), giving J his medicine, brushing the kids teeth, checking/turning off the dryer, and going to the dentist.
After that I want to run by dollar tree, go get myself some fast food, go home, crank up some good music and work on my to-do list.
My mom had some name ideas - Bryson & Stellar. Hubby's mom had some ideas too - Hunter & Connor.

Today's list of to-do's:
Shower
Vacuum kids closet
Put the gym mats in the twins closet
Take after photos of twins closet
Kids dinner
Dishes
1:45 - Twins dentist appointment
Call my mom
Get kids dressed
Check the mail
Kids lunch
Fold my and twins day clothes
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Wash towels
Unpack luggage
Put school bus in bag and stash in closet
Put blue bag in top of kids closet
Fill out booster seat registration cards
Cancel my dentist appointment
Pay BCBS some of what I owe
Get twins to clean their rooms
9:45 - Get hubby up for work
Kids breakfast
Dewrinkle hubby's clothes
Get hubby's clothes out of the dryer-hubby
Fold hubby's clothes-hubby
Dry my and twins clothes (rewash if spoiled - not)
Clean out our BR fridge - leftovers to Ziggy
Put sleeping bags away in sacks in kids closet
Put bag of big girl clothes in top of closet

Tomorrow's to-do's:
Mail booster seat registration cards
Call to see if J's prescription is ready
J's antihistamine
Kids breakfast
Wake up hubby to take care of kids
Doctor's appointment at 11:15
Pick up J's prescription
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, masking tape, outlet box cover?, organization?
Call the pediatrician about new patient
Fill up the movie rack
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Label twins dresser drawers
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Paint my tummy
Take tummy pictures!
Cut hair out of vacuum brush
Vacuum as much as possible - BR, LR, Kids room, hallway
Pack a hospital bag - blue fabric, hubby's baby blanket, 2 - 2 pc outfits, 1 legged onesie, 2 pairs socks, blue gown, preemie onesie, 1 other hat, my jeans, my t-shirt, 2 pairs breast pads, 2-3 pair socks, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger, toiletries, black fold-out bag
Clean the crib
Wipe down crib mattress
Put crib mattress in crib (after dry)
Finish the glass project
Put hammer away in toolbox
Fold blankets/towels/sheets/comforter
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Clear off bedroom dresser
Scan some pages in the Apple Tree workbook
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag

So I spent ALL last night thinking I was in labor or the kid was dying. I felt BAD. Pain in the guts, contractions, little movement from the baby, inability to sleep - it sucked! I really thought I'd be heading to labor & delivery today, but NOW, after pooping dinner from 2 nights ago and passing a ton of gas, I feel fine. I certainly hope labor won't feel as bad as needing to poop and fart!
I am definitely having lower pains and stronger contractions. He seems to have turned more - it is like his butt is sticking out in front now. I guess if I'm going to go anywhere today I need to hurry just in case. Ouch...contraction 10:09. Geez I really need to go to the bank, pharmacy, and dollar store. Ah...contraction gone 10:10. I'm running late with the twins breakfast. Contraction 10:13....stopped at 10:14. 10:16 start 10:17 stop. 10:20 start 10:22 stop. 10:25 start 10:26 stop. Got breakfast made for them - I'm hungry too. If I'm in labor they won't let me eat...so I should get food just in case. I need to get dressed, lay out the twins clothes, and make out a list. 10:30 start 10:31 stop. 10:32 start 10:32 stop. 10:34 start 10:35 stop. 10:36 start 10:36 stop. 10:39 start 10:39 stop. 10:42 start 10:43 stop. 10:46 - 10:47. I need a shower. 10:48 - 10:48. I mean these contractions are often but not as regular as I would expect for true labor. 10:50-10:50. 10:53-10:54. I need to get a plan of attack going here. 10:56-10:57. I need to go get my shower, get dressed, go to the bank, go by the pharmacy, get FAST food, come home and pack a hospital bag just in case. 10:58-10:59. I guess I should keep timing these things through 11:09 (that way I have 1 full hour of data to tell the doctor if/when I call). 11:00-11:01. 11:03-11:05 - long one. 11:09-11:10. 11:13-11:14. Stopping timing now to go take a shower.
Out of the shower now - just in time for the mail to run. That shower felt SO good. I had contractions, but I couldn't feel them in the hot, running water. Hubby has called twice today to check on me - how sweet of him. D'oh - 11:56-11:56 - it starts again. Between contractions I'm getting the kids dressed and brushing my teeth. I've still got to fill out my deposit slip and grab J's prescription slip. 11:59-12:00. 12:03-12:03 Now I'm beginning to wonder if I was having well-spaced apart contractions all night - these are so much closer than early labor should be. 12:06-12:06. I hate to Jinx myself, but it has been a whole 6 minutes with no contraction! Never mind - 12:13-12:13. 12:16-12:16. 12:18-12:19. 12:23-12:24. 12:26-12:26. Leaving to run errands - wish me luck!

UPDATE: We just got home from running errands; we'll need to go back out shortly to pickup the prescription we dropped off. I've eaten lunch, and I'm about to fix food for the twins. I'm not timing contractions right now - I'm just going with the flow. I'm listening to Natalie Merchant - Tigerlily - and trying not to bite my nails.
We went to pickup J's prescription and they don't have it. I only wasted a little gas. I have to call them tomorrow after 1pm to see if it is ready yet.
It is rainy and dark outside. I'm super tired - and after all the pain I felt on our adventure to the pharmacy, I think it would be best for me to lay down soon. At least this pain SEEMS to be from the baby moving and not as much from contractions. I've told the kids when 4pm gets here, we're all going to my room to watch a movie and rest. That gives me 16 minutes to eat a popsicle, empty the dryer, refill the dryer, and find a good movie to watch. I'll have to get back up later to feed the kids dinner - no big deal.
Back up - got the kids fed - found out Swayze died. Hubby will be home in a about an hour. Contractions are not too painful, but are often. This kids really seems to have "dropped" into my pelvis some. I've been very hot today too - I guess it is hormonal.

To-do today:
Kids breakfast
Kids lunch
Kids dinner
Check mail
Shower
J's antihistamine
Get kids dressed
Wash small load of my and kids clothes(nursing bra)
Fill J's prescription for Singulair - 2 pills left
Get cokes and milk
Deposit money from hubby

Scan zoo newsletters

Low impact things to do at night in bed:
Sew cloth wipes
Roll pennies
Repair/Sew my old baby blanket - to wash and hang behind the crib

And for tomorrow:
Pay BCBS
Twins dentist @ 1:45
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Paint my tummy
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Pick up J's prescription
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, masking tape, closet organization?
Label twins dresser drawers
Put glass in jars (from glass project)
Put hammer away in toolbox
Fold blankets/towels/sheets/comforter
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Clean crib
Unpack luggage
Repack luggage - blue fabric, hubby's baby blanket, 2 - 2 pc outfits, 1 legged onesie, 2 pairs socks, blue gown, preemie onesie, 1 other hat, my jeans, my t-shirt, 2 pairs breast pads, 2-3 pair socks, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger, toiletries, black fold-out bag
Put blue bag in top of kids closet
Dry small load of my and kids clothes
Fold small load of my and kids clothes
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Wash twins sleeping bags
Dry twins sleeping bags
Put away twins sleeping bags into zippered bags
Put sleeping bags in top of twins closet
Vacuum kids closet
Put the gym mats in the twins closet

Wednesday - hubby's mom's birthday
Wednesday - 11:15 - me doctor (unless I've already had the baby)

Football results are in - Auburn beat Mississippi State 42 to 24. Alabama beat Florida International 40 to 14. Tennessee lost to UCLA 15 to 19.
Today's weather is cloudy and potentially rainy - it is 73 degrees now with a high of 75. If it weren't so humid we could open the windows and give the air conditioner a break.
I'm a little leaky today. I'm not sure why - let's hope it is not amniotic fluid! I haven't felt movement from the baby since I woke up - I hope he is okay. Never mind - he is a mind reader. He's moving now like crazy. I've had a sinus headache - snotty, bloody nose - I took a Tylenol.
So far the twins haven't been as wild as yesterday. They ate breakfast and are now coloring (T) and playing with a Lego Racer (J) while Finding Nemo is on. Now J is coloring and doing a Spiderman activity book (both twins love finding "which one is different" and "which two are the same" puzzles).
Hubby is, of course, asleep. He went to bed in a bad mood (sometime after 3am) - the computer was frustrating him. He was very aggressive in his sleep - huffy and puffy and physically forceful. All pretty normal for him when he's in a bad mood. He was in such a funk that I'm afraid to wake him up; last night I asked what time to get him up, but he never told me. At least he'll wake up to coke - it's the third morning in a row I've had to go to the store before 9am to get cokes. That is getting very old, but if I wait around for him to do it, neither of us will have anything to drink until after lunchtime. Seriously, I've thought of buying enough coke to hide under the bed in case he leaves me stranded after I have the baby...and yes, I know I shouldn't be drinking coke.
My mood is going downhill - it is after noon and I can't get hubby to get out of bed. I'm sure he's had 8 hours of sleep; I'm sure he'll complain of a headache when he wakes up for good. I'm not up for all the wah-wah's and moping I have to hear from him; I DO love him, but he is spoiled and acts like a baby most of the time. He gets more back rubs and deep tissue massages out of me than he deserves...but I always give in because I haven't been putting out.
I told hubby's mom about how bad I feel - sinuses - tired - and her response was to go lay down. I asked her "where?" - my bed is already occupied. After I get out of bed, hubby takes the whole thing over and my comfort doesn't begin to matter. He's too busy sleeping all day to care how I feel. Do you think he would get up and watch the kids so I could sleep - HAHA - nope - that goes against his boyish, selfish ways. I don't even know if I want him in the delivery room with me when I have the baby - I have been envisioning me driving myself to the hospital in labor. It could totally happen.
Hubby could, you know, get out of bed and help do something - anything. He could take out the trash - never mind - I did it - it couldn't wait any longer. He could assemble the crib or get the dog food out of his mom's car. Instead, he'll sit in bed for at least an hour after he wakes up; he'll sit there asking for a back rub and complaining about how bad his back and head hurt - never once thinking about how anyone else feels.
Ah, yes, T ran into my bedroom and whispered to her sleeping dad (at 12:30pm) "Papa," to which he angrily responded "WHAT?" She answered by telling him her poop was red, and he said, "Get the F@#% up off of me!" Love flows so free around here. I'm not going back in there again - not after I saw him pop off on her like that. The twins have informed me that he doesn't want them in there - I could have told them that at 3am.
Times like these make you want to run away. Let's face it - I get little benefit being in this house. I get a roof over my head and my kids' heads. I get fed and my kids get fed because hubby's mom goes beyond her means to buy us food. I get water and electricity. Other than that I get headaches and worry. I get little control over the "home."

UPDATE - I took the kids to the playground around 1:30 because no one else would. Hubby got sad and apologized for being a jerk. I hear "sorry" everyday though. It doesn't mean much - so common I usually expect it. While we were at the playground, hubby called to say he was running out to see a friend - so we came home shortly after. We've had over an hour of a non-hostile environment. Lets hope things stay calm when hubby returns!

Last night I did more stuff on my list:
Put maxi pads and mommy recovery stuff (Tucks, Dermaplast) together in the bottom bathroom drawer
Weed out small/outgrown/will be outgrown before long clothes from twins closet
Put all the too big clothes from the twins closet together in a basket
Folded several blankets/sheets & put them away

On today's list, in no particular order:
Pull 4 tubs out of bedroom pile and find a place for them
Work on my bedroom pile
Assemble crib - HUBBY
Put potato heads, and skate tub in top of kids closet
Empty Trash
Put undies, socks, and pajamas away
Put away folded kids clothes
Put away big clothes baskets in closet
Get kids dressed

Push down arms off booster seats to fit into bag?
Put booster seats away in their bags
Put booster seats in kids closet
Measure blue mat - will it fit in bottom of closet? - YES
Reorganize twins dresser to hold jeans, shorts, and shirts

Get hubby to cash his check and give me my money

Low impact things to do at night in bed:
Sew cloth wipes
Roll pennies
Repair/Sew my old baby blanket - to wash and hang behind the crib

For yet another day:
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, masking tape, closet organization?
Label twins dresser drawers
Fill J's prescription for Singulair - 2 pills left
Wash twins sleeping bags
Dry twins sleeping bags
Put away twins sleeping bags into zippered bags

Put sleeping bags in top of twins closet
Vacuum kids closet
Fold blankets/towels/sheets/comforter
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Paint my tummy
Put the gym mats in the twins closet
Clean crib
Unpack luggage
Repack luggage - blue fabric, hubby's baby blanket, 2 - 2 pc outfits, 1 legged onesie, 2 pairs socks, blue gown, preemie onesie, 1 other hat, my jeans, my t-shirt, 2 pairs breast pads, 2-3 pair socks, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger, toiletries, black fold-out bag
Put blue bag in top of kids closet

Man, I'm frustrated today! J is giving me fits lately - normally it is T that does it. In the last week J has really changed; he may be asking for more attention by acting out, but why now? I would expect this type of behavior from both twins after the baby comes, but J is acting out now. I just don't get it. We are not going to Lowe's - I'm just not up to it today.
My upper back hurts, like it needs to pop - I'll take a Tylenol. The weather isn't as bright and sunny as I would like, but I can't change that.
It looks like today's Alabama football game will be on Pay-Per-View, so I'm not watching it. I have great confidence we will win though. Auburn should be on TV at 6 - I may watch that .

UPDATE: Hubby's mom made some yummy stew for dinner - the kids even loved it. At halftime Alabama is leading their game; also at halftime, Auburn is leading Mississippi State.

On today's list of potential to-do's (I know it's the same list every day):
Pull 4 tubs out of bedroom pile and find a place for them
Work on my bedroom pile
Fold blankets/towels/sheets
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Put maxi pads and mommy recovery stuff (Tucks, Dermaplast) together in the bottom bathroom drawer
Weed out small/outgrown/will be outgrown before long clothes from twins closet
Put all the too big clothes from the twins closet together in a basket
Fold pajamas and undies
Put all hot wheels track stuff in blue bag
Dewrinkle baby load 1
Count, sort, and put away baby socks in clear tub - if they will fit.
Clean diaper stacker plastic plank
Put plastic plank in diaper stacker
Put baby load 1 in space bag
Put Boppy in space bag - won't fit!
Dry twins and my clothes
Rename and organize scanned files on kids PC - I have over 100 files to view and rename
Move renamed files to my computer
Separate pads and pons
Sweep dining room
Fold twins and my day clothes
Move extra pieces of crib and hardware to a corner someplace - dining room maybe?
Make baby wipe solution in airtight container (though it seems heavy on the wash and oil, the first recipe I'm trying is: 1/2 cup baby wash, 1/2 cup mineral oil, 2 cups water - I can always water it down more if needed)
Put kids skates together in same tub
Wash booster seat covers
Dry booster seat covers - line dry
Clean booster seat bags
Clean booster seats
Put booster seat covers back on
Get the old couch pillows out of the twins closet
Put all the potato head stuff together
Feed twins breakfast
Feed twins lunch
Feed kids dinner
Check Mail
Put kids to bed

Low impact things to do at night in bed:
Sew cloth wipes
Roll pennies
Repair/Sew my old baby blanket - to wash and hang behind the crib

Things that will have to wait for another day:
Empty Trash
Put undies, socks, and pajamas away
Put away folded kids clothes
Get hubby to cash his check and deposit my money
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position
Paint my tummy
Take arms off booster seats to fit into bag?
Put booster seats away in their bags
Put booster seats in kids closet
Vacuum kids closet
Measure blue mat - will it fit in bottom of closet?
Put the gym mats in the twins closet
Wash twins sleeping bags
Dry twins sleeping bags
Put away twins sleeping bags
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, closet organization?
Clean crib pieces in crib corner
Assemble crib
Unpack luggage
Repack luggage - blue fabric, hubby's baby blanket, 2 - 2 pc outfits, 1 legged onesie, 2 pairs socks, blue gown, preemie onesie, 1 other hat, my jeans, my t-shirt, 2 pairs breast pads, 2-3 pair socks, medicaid application, pretty paper for footprints, camera charger, toiletries,
Put blue bag, potato heads, and skate tub in top of kids closet

Hubby is home till 3pm today, and he is planning to cash his check and pay $150 toward insurance. He and his boss had a talk about how our bills are all due at the same time, and they agreed it would be best if hubby got all his paychecks at one time - the end of the month. That way I can pay ALL the bills and know how much is left for gas and groceries. I can't wait till they start doing it that way. Part of me thinks we MAY be able to afford Christmas gifts this year.
We've been discussing baby names. He leans toward John, Jon, or Jonathan - I will NOT sign the kid's birth certificate if he is named that! I'm cool with Baker - I like Harrison - Griffin or Gabriel would work - Michael is decent - but NO John.
I'm so tired. It is a gloomy looking day - one of those days that it will be hard to wake hubby up; I think he went to bed pretty late too. It is 72 degrees and lightly raining - glad I went out to get cokes earlier! With rain falling, I can bet today will be a playdoh day inside. Hopefully the twins will zombie out on a movie or game until lunch - then after lunch we can do messy playdoh.
I'd like to get a lot accomplished today, but I overdid it yesterday. I need to do more "low impact" stuff today to keep my back from hurting. I could work on the renaming and organization of scanned files on the kids computer - all I have to do for that is sit at a desk and type. I'm not currently scanning anything, so I'm at a good spot to clean up the files. Also any hand-sewing type repairs are low impact - great for sitting in bed at night when nothing is on TV.
The twins have had breakfast, cleaned their rooms, made their beds, and gotten dressed. J requested his antihistamine, and he got it. I'm trying to find ways for them to help me prepare for the baby, but it's not so easy. They are helpful for picking up stuff off the ground - bending THAT far down is not on my list of favorite things to do. At least they both want to help (most of the time).
I'm sure sneezing a bunch today. I've also got a sinus headache and pain in my left ear. Hubby's mom said several people at her work are sick - let's hope she doesn't bring it home with her. If I get a fever, I'd think the doctor would just deliver the baby for good measure...I hope I don't have to find out.
UPDATE: Since 4pm I've felt "different." Sharp pains, light-headed, and happy. It felt like the baby twisted earlier - or at least the kicks moved to a slightly different position. I had a little fluid drainage, but not enough to worry about.
I'm afraid J may be getting sick; he has been laying around and crying more than normal. Also one of his eyes is a little red. I'm going to check him for a fever in a few minutes.
I'm really taking it easy tonight. I'm slowly working on the kids closet; so far I got the cloth covers off of the booster seats - ready to wash. Any work I do on that closet has to be done before twin bedtime at 7. After 7 I can focus on MY bedroom.
I'm planning on snacking on brownies, creamsicles, a banana, and an orange tonight. I also plan on working in some Wizard101 - horribly addictive. I figure this is my last chance to savor "me time" for quite a while. I might as well have fun and listen to music - while cleaning and preparing for the baby. Part of me wants to get adventurous and setup the crib by myself - the other part of me says that is a stupid, crazy idea.
On my list of possible things to do today(some more mandatory than others):
Dishes
Check mail
Kids lunch
Kids dinner
Put kids to bed
Fix twins toy stroller
Wash twins and my clothes
Dry twins and my clothes
Fold twins and my day clothes
Fold pajamas and undies
Put undies, socks, and pajamas away
Plug in pencil sharpener
Sharpen colored pencils
Rename and organize scanned files on kids PC - I have over 100 files to view and rename
Move renamed files to my computer
Move extra pieces of crib and hardware to a corner someplace - dining room maybe?
Repair/Sew my old baby blanket - to wash and hang behind the crib
Pick baby load 2 - 1 swaddleme blanket, 1 baby sling, 1 udder cover, 1 waterproof crib mattress pad, 3 crib sheets, 1 crib dust ruffle, and 1 bouncy seat cover.
Clean crib pieces
Pull 4 tubs out of bedroom pile and find a place for them
Work on my bedroom pile
Unpack luggage
Repack luggage
Wipe down/clean zippered bag for blankets
Fold blankets/towels/sheets
Put away folded towels/sheets/blankets
Put away folded kids clothes
Take before photos of kids closet
Weed out small/outgrown/will be outgrown before long clothes from twins closet
Put all the too big clothes from the twins closet together in a basket
Wash twins sleeping bags
Dry twins sleeping bags
Put away twins sleeping bags
Take booster seat covers off
Wash booster seat covers
Dry booster seat covers - line dry
Put booster seats away in their bags
Get the old couch pillows out of the twins closet
Put all the potato head stuff together
Put the gym mats in the twins closet
Empty space bag
Wipe down space bag
Wash baby load 1
Dry baby load 1
Count, sort, and put away baby socks in clear tub - if they will fit.
Fold baby load 1
Clean diaper stacker plastic plank
Put plastic plank in diaper stacker
Put baby load 1 in space bag
Put Boppy in space bag
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Fold baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Dollar Tree - spray bottle, closet organization?
Put maxi pads and mommy recovery stuff together in the bottom bathroom drawer
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position

These kids want to run all over authority. As soon as they can in the morning, they ask to play Wii, and 1 race in they want to play Xbox. After fighting over which game to play, they want to play on the computer. And the inevitable always comes from J, "Can we play the dreamcast?" I'm trying not to let them get to me.
Today is a long day at home - hubby is at work from 10-8, so I don't have to worry about him. The weather looks blah at best; it is 77 and cloudy with a high pollen content and a 30% chance of rain.
I am THRILLED our computer is hooked up to the living room TV - because now I can listen to my music on the surround sound stereo system. Just what I needed!
Our storage check cleared. That's good news - one less bill to pay!
I just used that flea powder in the crib corner...I wore a towel over my face. I tried not to breathe it, but now my chest hurts. I need to eat - maybe that will help me feel better.
Ideas of what I'll do today:
Eat
Dry blankets/towels/sheets
Put the twins to bed
Fold blankets/towels/sheets
Pick baby load 1
Pick baby load 2 - don't forget crib sheets & bigger blankets & SOCKS!
Clean crib pieces
Pull 4 tubs out of bedroom pile and find a place for them
Work on my bedroom pile
Unpack luggage
Repack luggage
Empty dishwasher
Pre-wash dishes
Load dishwasher
Check mail
Feed the twins
Take twins to playground
Find 1 baby outfit that has a matching hat
Check my old baby blanket to see how torn up it is - consider hanging it on the wall behind crib
Flea powder crib corner and sweep it in
Vacuum crib corner
Find needed crib hardware bag
Put crib pieces in crib corner
Move extra pieces of crib and hardware to a corner someplace - dining room maybe?
Repair/Sew my old baby blanket - to wash and hang behind the crib
Eat a horrible peanut cone in the shower
Shower
Listen to my music!
For another day:
Wash twins sleeping bags
Dry twins sleeping bags
Put away twins sleeping bags
Wash booster seat covers
Dry booster seat covers
Put booster seats away in their bags
Get the old couch pillows out of the twins closet
Put all the potato head stuff together
But the gym mats in the twins closet
Weed out small/outgrown/will be outgrown before long clothes from twins closet
Put all the too big clothes from the twins closet together in a basket
Empty space bag
Wipe down space bag
Wash baby load 1
Dry baby load 1
Clean diaper stacker plastic plank
Put plastic plank in diaper stacker
Put baby load 1 in space bag
Put Boppy in space bag
Wash baby load 2
Dry baby load 2
Put baby load 2 in space bag
Clean & dust ottoman
Move ottoman to bedroom
Clear off dresser in living room
Dollar Tree - closet organization?
Put maxi pads and mommy recovery stuff together in the bottom bathroom drawer
Move surelatch connectors on new car seat to rear-facing position

***UPDATE - I feel MUCH better after eating and drinking a sweet tea.

For baby's first load I'm washing: 2 gowns, 8 onesies, 1 preemie onesie (just in case he's tiny), 4 sleepers, 1 kimono shirt, 1 legged onesie outfit thingy, 2 - 2 pc going home/photo outfits(one sleeper & hat; one shirt and shorts), 4 other hats, 3 pairs mitts, 7 t-shirts, 32 pairs socks(might as well do ALL the socks since they are so little), 1 pair rubber pants, 1 infant seat positioner, 7 receiving blankets, 4 flatfold diaper cloths, 1 diaper stacker, 3 waterproof pads, hubby's baby blanket, 2 hooded towels, 2 washcloths, 1 hooded blanket, and 1 burp cloth.
Next baby load will be: 1 swaddleme blanket, 1 baby sling, 1 udder cover, crib sheets, crib bumpers, 1 crib dust ruffle, and 1 bouncy seat cover. And I'll likely shove something else in there if I need to.
I'm going to go take a Tylenol and sit down a minute - I've really been on my feet a lot today. I've got heartburn, but I'll tough it out. Other than being physically worn out, I feel good. I feel like I'm slowly but surely getting what needs to be done accomplished.

Hubby tried to setup the crib today to surprise me while I was at the doctor; unfortunately I had the rails in the back of the van, so he couldn't do it. Sweet thought though! He did dust our bedroom - got all the cobwebs down. He also hooked up the computer to our living room TV. He played play-doh with the kids after their outside time got rained out. After I got home from the doctor he talked very responsibly about changes we need to make to our lifestyles. I really feel like he's progressing as a person.
Another BIG thing happened today; we got a car seat! My grandmother picked 3 yesterday at the store for me to research. I checked all 3 out online and determined I wanted the least expensive of the 3. I had a 10% off coupon, so I met her at McDonald's before my appointment to give it to her. While I was in my appointment, she drove to the store and got the new convertible car seat. We met back up at McDonald's to put it in my van. I am SO happy! This car seat rocks! I can't thank her enough! A huge weight was lifted when I got that seat home - I'm majorly thrilled about it!
On a sad note, our car insurance was cancelled due to non-payment. Hopefully hubby can get that resolved before this weekend - sometime next week at the latest.
As far as preparing laundry for the baby, I've gathered a "first load" of what I'll need except clothes. In a little while I plan on going through the 0-3 month clothes to pick the smallest to wash now. I also need to pick a "coming home" outfit.
The doctor said my blood pressure was 118/50, the baby's heart rate is 140-150, and I gained a little weight. Also, I am still 2.5-3cm dilated, and my cervix is still thick. The baby is head down, and she guessed he's about 7 pounds. So nothing new to report. The doctor still wants me to pick a date - I still don't want to. If I have to pick a date it will likely be October 1st. I go back next Wednesday at 11:15am.

A new Nerf gun comes out today...and that Rock Band Beatles game too. I won't be getting any of that though - I've got a doctor's appointment. They had no room tomorrow, so I'm going a day early. My appointment is at 1:30pm, and hubby is watching the kids for me; hubby has to leave for work at 3:15, so this better be a snappy visit!
I plan on leaving early for the doctor so I can get gas (and a drink), and I want to arrive early enough to get seen quickly. I may even fill out my urine sticker before I leave home. Of course, knowing my luck, my doctor will be busy birthing someone else's baby - hopefully NOT birthing mine just yet.
I think I'm going to try my best to get as ready as I can for childbirth by Monday. That involves cleaning, washing clothes, having a clean place to put the clothes, sorting the baby stuff, packing my hospital bag, and rearranging where the twins clothes are (for hubby who is clueless). I also need to finish sewing those cloth wipes, and I need to get some paper towels to rip and fold into disposable wipes. I should also mix up some wipe solution and put it in a spray bottle...I've got all the supplies EXCEPT the spray bottle.
I paid LAST month's health insurance, but this month's payment is still due...ugh. Cable is due, as well as car insurance. And I mailed a check to storage just hoping it will not overdraw me when it finally clears...we'll see.
Hubby's mom has a birthday this month - the 16th. The twins have dentist appointments - the 15th. The baby is due - the 24th.
My due date is 15 days away; if I get prepared to have this kid by Monday, I'll still have about 10 days to rest and mentally prepare myself (and the twins). If I go over my due date, I'll still have a baby in 22 days. And still we have no name. Ha...it'll come to us. The hardest part is agreeing on a name - he doesn't like what I like and vice versa. I like Harrison - he likes Baker.

Of my list of things I needed to do today, I have completed:
Eating more.
Drying the sheets.
Taking those darn books back to the library.
Taking what little cash hubby gave me to the bank.
Cleaning out the potential "crib corner" in my room.
Dusting the potential crib corner.
Cleaning the walls in the crib corner.
Dusting the baseboards in the crib corner.

I think I'm still doing this long drawn-out nesting thing. I'm in the mood to clean and rearrange. I can't leave the house until I get some clean clothes to wear...laundry comes first!

So far today I've:
Eaten 3 slices of raisin bread/toast.
Opened the blinds.
Emptied the dryer.
Folded the "day clothes."
Refilled the dryer.
Washed the Boppy.
Washed my clothes & the twins clothes.
Dried my clothes and the kids clothes.
Folded my clothes and the kids clothes.
Stripped my bed and washed the sheets.
Checked the mail.
Confirmed my doctor's appointment for tomorrow.
Charged my cell phone.
Things I need to do today:
Eat more!
Dry the sheets.
Take those darn books back to the library!
Take what little cash hubby gave me to the bank.
Take the stuff from my last trip to storage OUT of the van.
Take 2-3 tubs to storage to drop off. - Never mind on this one - not till the check clears the bank.
Take interesting maternity photos.
Charge the small camera.
Check the tomatoes - I don't think I've checked on them in 3 days or so.
Finish scanning the US Flag workbook.
Find a tub to put CLEAN baby stuff in - like the Boppy and any clothes I clean.
Clean out the potential "crib corner" in my room.
Vacuum the potential "crib corner" in my room.
Move the crib to the potential "crib corner" in my room.
Find the needed hardware for the crib, see if we have EVERYTHING we need, and put the hardware with the crib.
On tonight's agenda:
Shower
My show - Duggars
Our show - Hell's Kitchen
Another show - Primetime Family Secrets

It's noon and I feel horrible again. My day is already at a stopping point because I am hurting. My chest hurts, my upper back hurts, I feel like I can't catch my breath, and I have so much work left to do around here. Seriously, I have to wonder if I feel bad from vacuuming - since all that flea powder is still in the canister.
Update 3pm - Hubby left, which brightens my day! I feel like a weight has been lifted with him gone. Hubby's mom has a friend over, and they are cooking; funny story...Hubby's mom ran into Hubby's dad at the store earlier (they've been divorced for close to 20 years). He actually seemed happy to see her - they haven't seen each other since my kids were born (May 2004).
My tummy feels bad - I haven't eaten yet today. Coke is not settling on my tummy well either.
If I can get these kids to behave, I may try to tackle my bedroom disorganization today. As a matter of fact - right now!

Ha...Labor Day...lets hope not! I didn't sleep well last night. Neither did J - he got up 3 times to come in our room during the night. The twins WILL be grumpy later; they did not go to bed until 9:15 last night, and they were up at 7:15.
Hubby's mom has a friend coming over at noon, so hopefully he will be up by then. I'm going to try and wake him at 10 or 10:30 first. He came to bed before 3 this morning. He and I talked a little last night. I told him about how I can't clean up my stuff in our room because he's sleeping during my "prime" time to function. He told me to work in there anyway, but I'm not sure he means it. I think he'd be quite annoyed at my noise, but we will see.
I've begun moving stuff around in the living room, but I feel I shouldn't vacuum until he gets up. So, that is going nowhere. I guess I could get my trusty measuring tape out to make sure my plans will work.
Oh, and I hear the grumpiness beginning in the kids' room. Overly emotional boy hits overly emotional girl, and I have to break him down by threatening the well-being of his mickey mouse doll. So sad.

I ate a steak, some mac & cheese, and some baked beans. I took a HUGE, foul, runny poop. Hubby took the kids to our room to watch a movie and let them stay up late, so I'm sitting in the living room loving the quiet.
I drew up our living room & dining room to get an idea of how we can arrange the furniture. I think I've got it figured out well enough. I'll start in the morning on actual movement of items.

My mood is REALLY bad right now. I am angry. I am depressed. I am afraid I will snap if my husband says anything to me...ANYTHING. But for him to talk to me, he would have to wake up first. I know it must be tiring to be awake for 6 hours, but come on man.
I'm feeling frustrated and lonely. I feel I am the ONLY person in this house thinking about the new baby. I can see now that I will be stuck moving furniture, cleaning, spraying for bugs, and building a crib by myself. Oh, lets not forget the laundry - and finding a place for the laundry. I feel like I could stay home for the next 18 days working 6-8 hours a day on this and I'll barely get done in time. And I'm sure it is all MY fault that no one will help me. I could get my brother to come help - though he would want to be paid, and we know I don't have any money...in a few days I also won't have any insurance. Go me!
I can't seem to quash my sarcastic nature today. I'm crying too. I feel taken advantage of. I feel helpless and powerless. I can't seem to focus on the positive - I am dwelling on the negative and projecting bad things on my future. It's hard not to. In our current situation I feel a lot of doom. I feel like we'll never have enough money, we'll never have our own house, my husband will die at a young age after much suffering, and I'll be left with kids and little else. I don't see progress happening. Not now. Not ever.
I'm sorry to be such a Debbie-downer - I'm just venting and telling the truth of how I feel. The worst part of how I feel, is...deep-down inside, I do NOT think hubby cares about me, the kids, or how any of us feel. Ultimately he doesn't feel/think he is responsible for us or our well-being. He knows that I can't MAKE him do (or pay) anything. It is frustrating.
I am so jealous of those happily married couples...they work together as a team. The couples that take off work to go to important doctor's appointments with each other. Couples that actually cook for each other and eat together. Couples that call or email each other when they aren't together (and are genuinely happy to hear their spouse's voice). Couples that share money, chores, time together, interests.
Maybe I'm down because the only food I've had today is 2 plain biscuits. Around 7:15pm dinner SHOULD be ready - steaks and mac & cheese.

I LOVED the football game last night. We won. It was very entertaining, especially toward the end of the game.
I am SO sick of going to buy cokes everyday. My lower tummy has been hurting pretty bad when I try to stand up. Yesterday I had one episode where I could barely walk.
Hubby went to play disc golf for the first time in forever today. Thank goodness! It always helps him in the long-run to be active in a hobby, and these past couple of months he hasn't been active in a hobby - and he's been bummed.
I'm busy cleaning today. I'm filling up a bag of trash...getting pretty full. I can't start laundry yet - I'm letting hubby's mom take her time (she does have a fracture in her foot - it's only fair to NOT rush her). I'm sure hubby needs to do laundry, so I'll let him go first when the time comes. After he gets done I'll do towels/sheets, then my and the twins' clothes, followed by the boppy (it gets to air dry). I need to decide when I'm going to do the baby's laundry. I guess it depends....maybe it would be wise to run one load of enough to get by the first day or two...just 1-2 towels & washcloths, a few burp cloths, some onesies and socks and hats, and the swaddleme wrap. I'll get to it, all in good time.
I'm really irritated with the kids today. I know they need to go outside or leave the house, but I'm not feeling very good, and they can wait till their father gets home to have outdoor fun. I'm feeling very "space-invaded" today. It's like everyone here is all up in my business and I can't let go and enjoy what I'm doing. I'm not enjoying the kids or the cleaning or the music I'm trying to listen to. I'm tense. I need to unwind. I think a lot of this is me going stir-crazy - I've only been leaving the house on short runs to the store. Hubby's mom has been home for DAYS on end, and she's off again tomorrow. The kids haven't gone to the playground in at least 2-3 days. Hubby is off work today and tomorrow. I just need to get away from these people - I feel so trapped. Perhaps I'm already feeling trapped by the swine flu...and perhaps I'm feeling preemptive trappings from the baby. I've got to find a way to work through it.

Recent accomplishments (no matter how little they may be):
Scanned all of the Multiplication Grades2-4 workbook.
Scanned all of the Division Grades2-4 workbook.
Started scanning a Moses ages 7-11 story/activity book.
Started my own Wizard 101 character and got her up to level 10!
Found the diaper pins - 11 - how odd.
Renewed medicaid - the acceptance letter came in today :)
Sorted 3 different tubs - reorganization that needed to be done to medicine/first aid AND small toiletries.
Began cleaning out under the bathroom sink - I now have an idea of what needs to done next.
Remembered to ask hubby if we have any interior perimeter bug spray - we do not - he agreed he wants to spray before the baby arrives, but with my health insurance SO overdue, we'll have to wait on bug spray.
Rough stitched a pee-pee-tee-pee.
Killed bunches of ants in the bathroom.
Emptied my purse & refilled it properly - even remembered to put J's Singulair refill info in there.
Bought a stamp and mailed my storage check - hopefully that means it gets postmarked today (and I don't get a late fee) - and hopefully the check will not clear until LATE next week.
Entered 14 coke reward codes online.
Entered sweeps.

I failed to mention hubby also moved our filing cabinet and printer out of our bedroom yesterday. Next up is deciding if we are rearranging our room or leaving it as is but adding a crib. Then are we rearranging the living room or leaving it as is?
Hubby came to bed at 4 this morning; he was complaining of a toothache that had him up again (briefly) at 5:30. I need to go to the dollar store ASAP to get him Tylenol, and I need to get a stamp to mail my storage payment.
I'm not going to wake hubby up till 11:00am the first time - probably he won't get up till noon or after.
UPDATE
It's pouring outside and I got soaked going to get Tylenol. Hubby got up around 12:30, and left for work around 2pm. In the bad weather, I decided not to take the kids to do anything. As long as I can find food for myself around here, I'll only need to get cokes later.
The Alabama football game begins at 7, and I plan to watch it. Kids can watch a movie in my room(and go to bed during a commercial break), and I'll watch football on the big TV in the living room. Roll Tide!

Thursday:
My parents watched the kids.
I went to the doctor.
They took blood to rule out pre-eclampsia (the ONLY symptom I had was seeing stars).
My iron level was fine, blood pressure 100/50, and no protein in the urine - great, great, and great.
Baby's heart rate varied from 120-158 - great.
I am 2.5-3 cm dilated - yes, in a week I went from 0-3 cm.
My cervix is still thick.
I gained 1.5 pounds in a week.
The doctor is still pushing for an elective induction.

Friday:
Hubby slept till noon.
Hubby got in the attic (he is pissed at how I had taken things and rearranged 2 summers ago) and he got down the crib(s).
He was really mean about the fact that I had moved the screws for the cribs to storage; I moved them because that bag also had the screws for 2 other pieces of furniture that I moved to storage. I intended for the cribs to go to storage too, but it never happened. I got my butt chewed OUT. I can't believe how well I held back the tears.
At least we have the cribs down now...2 pieces can go back up (or to storage with most everything else).
I took the kids to storage tonight and spent an hour digging out the screws - I knew where they were - in the corner - under a huge pile of bagged items. Next to a million spiders and their egg sacks...you know, in that pile of roach droppings and eggs.
I removed a LOT of beat-up toys, video racks, and clothes - then we took them to Hannah Home for donation.
I'm so tired now - I could die.
Hubby's mom, who JUST got healed from her fractured tibia and fibula, now has a fracture in her foot. It was not detected by x-ray - it took a CT scan to find it.
We are skipping the Butterbean Festival tomorrow for the first time ever. Instead, we may go build at Home Depot and go to story time at Books-A-Million. Or, we may just stay home.
T is starting to cut her second adult tooth. J's teeth are still not loose.

Tomorrow - Thursday
Feed kids breakfast at 8:45
Wake hubby up at 8:45 & 9:00
Leave for my parent's 9:30~9:45
Drop kids off with my parent's at 10:00am
Doctor at 10:30am
Pay $2-$4 for parking
Go pick up the kids
Drop off library books

I'm trying hard to NOT bite my nails and pick at my face. I'm feeling the urge to be a "normal" mom who sets good examples (instead of nail-biting). I do a lot of things I would never want my kids to do...I really need to "check myself." I need to eat right, drink water, blah, blah, blah.
My grandmother, who just got home a few days ago from Maine, dropped by to say hello and give us baby stuff; she got some cool burp cloths, receiving blankets, and clothes for the baby - the blankets & burp cloths were homemade by her friend...too cute! She got to see how much the twins have grown, and she saw their adult teeth growing in. J spelled "squid" for her, and read her postcard to her. I showed her my brother's pictures from my cousin's wedding reception. She and I also checked out car seats online - she says she will buy one. It was so great to see her again! I've missed her so much! Of course she told me I wasn't as big as she expected - everyone says that.
I will say I don't think I've been gaining weight anymore. Weight is relative to mood and money; if I have enough money to buy food I like, then I gain weight. If I have no money I get depressed, lose my appetite, and don't eat. I'm broke - there is SOME food here. I'm almost sick of Vienna sausage sandwiches and fruit though.
Today I clipped J's fingernails - it was long overdue. The twins cleaned their rooms. J didn't finish breakfast, and T didn't finish lunch; basically we are down to the food they don't enjoy.
Man, I'm feeling really bad again. This is the second day in a row that I'm seeing stars just sitting at the desk; I normally (when not pregnant) only see stars upon standing and moving - and then I black out. I've had a doctor in the past tell me seeing stars has to do with low blood pressure OR low blood sugar. I have to assume it is low blood sugar because I haven't eaten at all today - it's 3:30pm, and I haven't even had a crumb. Hubby told me to call him at work tonight at 9, and he will make me some food. He was being pretty good to me for the last 30 minutes before he went to work today. He offered to cook me a grilled cheese and rub my back. Of course I didn't take him up on it...I'm an idiot, right? I'm really light-headed and tired.
Despite feeling bad, I have to go buy cokes here in a minute. I'd love to be able to afford some food, because, honestly, I don't think I've got it in me to cook. I really shouldn't drive like this.
The good news is, I have a doctor's appointment in the morning - if something is wrong they will find it then. As of now, the baby is kicking just fine. I hope tomorrow's appointment goes well, but I also wouldn't mind if the doctor takes some extra time to check the baby out. At least I'll know how my blood pressure is, and I can ask the doc about seeing stars.

Hubby didn't have to work till this afternoon, and I managed to get him out of bed around 10:30am with no fighting. He did leaf rubbing with T and soccer with both twins earlier in the front yard; they even saw a praying mantis in a tree.
I folded a bunch of laundry today; I also weeded out busted socks and outgrown socks/underwear from the kids drawer. I sorted the socks and undies left and stacked them back in the drawer; is this nesting? I checked the mail and finished scanning the workbook.
As usual on Tuesday, I'm getting those kids in bed at 7pm so I can be showered and lotioned before 8pm when my show comes on.
Bills are getting behind. My health insurance can be cut-off as soon as today. Our car insurance will be canceled by Saturday. And storage MUST be paid by Saturday or I can kiss ALL of my stuff goodbye. Those are our 3 of our 4 biggest bills - all due at the same time. The 4th - cable - is due by the middle of the month.

Isn't it interesting that blogger's spell-check doesn't recognize "sneezy" or "achiness"...did I make those words up?
My son has officially declared he doesn't like to be called by his nickname/shortened version of his first name. He's been telling his sister not to call him that for weeks, but today he announced he wants NONE of us to call him that.
Mommy Michelle Duggar is pregnant with her 19th child (20th if you include her miscarriage back in the 80's). I'm thrilled for her! It would be great if she gets another girl - even twin girls to even out the sexes. If I did my math right, she should be due in March 2010...so cool!
I somehow lost an entire blog entry from yesterday. That sucks! I'm sure it had nothing important, but it still is a disappointment. NEVERMIND. It was labeled as AM instead of PM and posted in the wrong spot.
I just watched the season finale of Weeds. It ROCKED! I can't wait for next season. I also can't wait for the final season of Lost, which I assume will start in January...the baby will be 4 months old then.