Mid-week
I'm trying hard to NOT bite my nails and pick at my face. I'm feeling the urge to be a "normal" mom who sets good examples (instead of nail-biting). I do a lot of things I would never want my kids to do...I really need to "check myself." I need to eat right, drink water, blah, blah, blah.
My grandmother, who just got home a few days ago from Maine, dropped by to say hello and give us baby stuff; she got some cool burp cloths, receiving blankets, and clothes for the baby - the blankets & burp cloths were homemade by her friend...too cute! She got to see how much the twins have grown, and she saw their adult teeth growing in. J spelled "squid" for her, and read her postcard to her. I showed her my brother's pictures from my cousin's wedding reception. She and I also checked out car seats online - she says she will buy one. It was so great to see her again! I've missed her so much! Of course she told me I wasn't as big as she expected - everyone says that.
I will say I don't think I've been gaining weight anymore. Weight is relative to mood and money; if I have enough money to buy food I like, then I gain weight. If I have no money I get depressed, lose my appetite, and don't eat. I'm broke - there is SOME food here. I'm almost sick of Vienna sausage sandwiches and fruit though.
Today I clipped J's fingernails - it was long overdue. The twins cleaned their rooms. J didn't finish breakfast, and T didn't finish lunch; basically we are down to the food they don't enjoy.
Man, I'm feeling really bad again. This is the second day in a row that I'm seeing stars just sitting at the desk; I normally (when not pregnant) only see stars upon standing and moving - and then I black out. I've had a doctor in the past tell me seeing stars has to do with low blood pressure OR low blood sugar. I have to assume it is low blood sugar because I haven't eaten at all today - it's 3:30pm, and I haven't even had a crumb. Hubby told me to call him at work tonight at 9, and he will make me some food. He was being pretty good to me for the last 30 minutes before he went to work today. He offered to cook me a grilled cheese and rub my back. Of course I didn't take him up on it...I'm an idiot, right? I'm really light-headed and tired.
Despite feeling bad, I have to go buy cokes here in a minute. I'd love to be able to afford some food, because, honestly, I don't think I've got it in me to cook. I really shouldn't drive like this.
The good news is, I have a doctor's appointment in the morning - if something is wrong they will find it then. As of now, the baby is kicking just fine. I hope tomorrow's appointment goes well, but I also wouldn't mind if the doctor takes some extra time to check the baby out. At least I'll know how my blood pressure is, and I can ask the doc about seeing stars.
My grandmother, who just got home a few days ago from Maine, dropped by to say hello and give us baby stuff; she got some cool burp cloths, receiving blankets, and clothes for the baby - the blankets & burp cloths were homemade by her friend...too cute! She got to see how much the twins have grown, and she saw their adult teeth growing in. J spelled "squid" for her, and read her postcard to her. I showed her my brother's pictures from my cousin's wedding reception. She and I also checked out car seats online - she says she will buy one. It was so great to see her again! I've missed her so much! Of course she told me I wasn't as big as she expected - everyone says that.
I will say I don't think I've been gaining weight anymore. Weight is relative to mood and money; if I have enough money to buy food I like, then I gain weight. If I have no money I get depressed, lose my appetite, and don't eat. I'm broke - there is SOME food here. I'm almost sick of Vienna sausage sandwiches and fruit though.
Today I clipped J's fingernails - it was long overdue. The twins cleaned their rooms. J didn't finish breakfast, and T didn't finish lunch; basically we are down to the food they don't enjoy.
Man, I'm feeling really bad again. This is the second day in a row that I'm seeing stars just sitting at the desk; I normally (when not pregnant) only see stars upon standing and moving - and then I black out. I've had a doctor in the past tell me seeing stars has to do with low blood pressure OR low blood sugar. I have to assume it is low blood sugar because I haven't eaten at all today - it's 3:30pm, and I haven't even had a crumb. Hubby told me to call him at work tonight at 9, and he will make me some food. He was being pretty good to me for the last 30 minutes before he went to work today. He offered to cook me a grilled cheese and rub my back. Of course I didn't take him up on it...I'm an idiot, right? I'm really light-headed and tired.
Despite feeling bad, I have to go buy cokes here in a minute. I'd love to be able to afford some food, because, honestly, I don't think I've got it in me to cook. I really shouldn't drive like this.
The good news is, I have a doctor's appointment in the morning - if something is wrong they will find it then. As of now, the baby is kicking just fine. I hope tomorrow's appointment goes well, but I also wouldn't mind if the doctor takes some extra time to check the baby out. At least I'll know how my blood pressure is, and I can ask the doc about seeing stars.
